Perfectionist's Anxiety

i have this interesting thing 

that I have called perfectionist's anxiety

it's the concept that

everyone is doing something better than I am

cause I make too mamy mistakes

or I waste my time

or I am not enough

i don't take the time to eat with my family

i eat on the go or while doing work

i text my brother and family when i'm free- otherwise

it takes too much time to hold a conversation

i put off everything that distracts me 

from my ultimate dream

and constantly find myself

living life in the future, not the present

as if my hobbies and loved ones today

should not be cherished

instead i am lost in the concept of being a perfectionist

who feels nothing but imperfection

so i'm trying my best to improve myself

and go easier on my mind

like those that just take life a day at a time

because that's what it takes 

to be truly successful

and happy

so i've learned that imperfection is just a part

of being a perfectionist

and i'm okay with that

i have to be

In this week's poem, I took inspiration from poet Rupi Kaur and her simplistic, concise poem structure. I also decided to parallel the ideas of imperfection and perfection and my experiences with them. My main analogy is comparing how I want to be like the people who have the skill to be able to live in the moment. I am not able to do this and aspire to have this skill one day. I also go over the idea of the contrasts between imperfection and perfection. I hope you guys liked this new poem style and as always thanks for joining me on Storytime with Sejal!